Sunday, August 28, 2011

37 Hours Left, 27% Funding, What Does It All Mean?

Fundraising for publication of my first novel, Age / Sex / Location continues to be a lesson in the duality of the world.  It has been the most encouraging, disappointing, elating, frustrating, humbling, ego-stroking and downright confusing venture that I've ever attempted.

The amazing thing about the fundraiser is the number of people who are supportive, awed and inspired by my dreams in private... they've told me so through phone calls, instant messages, e-mails and even face to face when I've been out and about... but who also appear to want to keep their support hidden from the rest of the world.

To paraphrase the sentiment, "I want to support you, and I think the concept of following your dream is amazing.    But, I want to see what everyone else does first.  Sure, I'd love to help you fund the project, but only if your fundraiser fails."

I do want to add that there are some amazingly wonderful people who not only have been publicly supportive of the project, but who are more supportive than I thought anyone who I'm not currently married to / blackmailing would be.  And it is those people who keep me going on this crusade to live life to the fullest, and avoid becoming another cog in the wheel.

I suppose the entire experience has been another example of the sorrowful reality that in general, there is a profound lack of belief in dreams in our world today.  Rather than recognizing a strong and powerful idea and helping to spread the word, we tend to wait around like wallflowers until either the idealist behind it fails so that we can either save them from the cruelty of "others" who didn't believe in them (or say "I told you so" if we're snarky), or until a satisfactory number of "others" deems that the idea is valuable and trendy.

Although I am biased because, after all, this is my fundraiser we're discussing; I truly don't understand those who have said they love what I write and hope I succeed, but who won't pledge $1.00 towards the goal of success.  It is saddening to know that there are people who value a cup of coffee more highly than the hopes and dreams of others, and it has inspired me to swing the other way.

If you have a dream, and I hope to God that you do, then please follow it.  Encourage others to do the same. And please, support one another financially, emotionally and publicly.  The handful of people in my life who are proud enough of my small successes to share them with others do more for my self-esteem and ability to move to the next step than they could ever know.

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Sunday, August 14, 2011

Only Two Weeks Left

Well, I've made it through the first month of fundraising for my novel, Age / Sex / Location and the fundraising process continues to surprise me!  Through the generous backing of 8 individuals, $600 of the $5,000 I need has been raised so far and I've been told that there are more people waiting for the suspense to build a little more before adding their donation to the mix.

The project has been humbling and inspiring so far; reconnecting me with old friends who are interested in what "that crazy Denise" is up to and prompting others to make steps toward realizing their dreams as well!  It is wonderful to know that whether this fundraiser is a financial success or not, there are people out there who believe in me and who take comfort in knowing that they are watching me as an encouragement in their own projects.

There is still another $4,400 to raise, and my Mom has offered to get purple highlights once the fundraiser hits the goal as an incentive to anyone who'd like to see a conservative middle-aged woman with purple hair.  I love the gesture, and have also vowed to dye my hair blue (and keep it blue all the way until the book is bound and distributed) for the project once it funds.

Hopefully, these silly additions to the other many rewards for backers will inspire more people to join the cause.  It is my desire for others to know that every dollar really does count when you're chasing a dream.

Now just to make it through the next two weeks...

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Fundraising Fun and Frustration. (The Triple F)

Well, I've been working at raising funds for my first novel, Age / Sex / Location for a few weeks now, and I've got to say... fundraising is exhausting!  There is the elating high when someone new pledges funds toward the project, the hand-wringing anxiety of wondering when (or if) anyone else will find it to be worth backing, pats on the back from friends and strangers, and the strange and tense feeling of trying to explain "why" I am even attempting such an endeavor.

This portion of my journey toward a bound and readable novel has been a great and wonderful learning experience.  Not only has it opened my eyes to the continued battle of those who spend their lives raising funds for causes they believe in, but it has also warmed my soul to know that there are so many people who are willing, happy and able to help others reach their dreams.

If you have gotten this far in the posting and are wondering where you can get more information on the project I'm talking about, check out my Kickstarter page.  Please feel free to read through all of the updates, e-mail me any questions you might have at d.kawaii@gearheadzpaintball.com or follow me on Facebook.

Thank you to all of you who have supported my endeavors!